November 1, 2011
I have really been preoccupied and busy with work and school lately. I did some shopping every now and then whenever I can. It soothes me though instead of thinking about where all the cash go. Apart from my busy life, I still find myself thinking of my husband and baby. Its a given maybe but its something I cannot deny myself of everyday - I miss them. I finally found time today to actually finish packing two boxes to send home tomorrow. It just felt like forever …

July 1, 2011
July it is! Days are coming by fast! There’s only 5 months left according to my countdown again for my next vacation back home. So today as I finish my daily hunt for a better job, my Amazon order finally arrived today. About time to pamper these nails. I haven’t been using polish on my fingers ever since I got here. Yeah, its because of my previous job. Looking for a better one now that I can go to work with colored nails! It should not be …

June 24, 2011
My Auntie Glyn, Uncle Greg, and Zach arrived yesterday from Minnesota. And they’re here in Vegas for my dad’s birthday. As most of you know, we don’t have that much relatives here. From the looks of it, we are going to start one! There’s only 12 cousins and that’s it. 3 of those are in the Philippines. So we were really looking forward to meeting them all. I never really met Zach, Josh, and Cherie. I just know them by the pictures they used to send every year. …

As most of you guys know, I have been working as a manager at a restaurant here in Las Vegas. It is my first job here and it was great while it lasted. The store was new and I was one of those first employees ever hired. It is really amazing how a year can bring about strong friendships and memories that will last. I have recently filed my resignation due to some misunderstandings that I prefer not to go back to. And I have made the decision to pursue …

May 3, 2011
If there’s a way to just clear my mind and have it BLANK… I would gladly do so…
Today is just one of those unhappy days no matter what I do to make myself happy, literally. I think its just normal to get to the verge of things. When the expected is not attained. When the worse happens. And the wanted not grasped. Yet attracting unwanted events.
I got myself books to read. A new laptop. A lot of little and new things to do yet happiness can’t be just …

I finally got my hands on these! After 3 years of blogging I was finally able to choose and buy one. I have been using my husband’s old Acer laptop and I badly needed a new one. Both of us have ASUS laptops now. I haven’t had the time to get to know what it can do and what not for the past days but surely, I it will soon. I feel happily back on the blogging world with this! Better late than never of a birthday present for me. …

Today I write of a man I miss so much. Maybe its all in my mind all the time that everything I do leads me to think about you. Love is indeed about patience. It teaches the precious lesson of waiting. And as I drown in my thoughts tonight, I only think of that one thing. Not on hardships but I’m  holding on to that love that once conquered me. Here’s the best song to sing as for now. I know in this world, a lot of couples are waiting …

February 24, 2011
My ordered prints just arrived! I have been blogging for 3 years now and I told myself its about time to get these pictures and memories printed out. I’ve been through some troubles way back and I worry about losing all my soft copies which I worked hard on compiling. So this should be a good start. The website had a special offer of printing out 101 FREE prints and all I paid for was shipping and handling. The service is hassle free. Its as simple as uploading …

January 25, 2011
The inevitable day. I was hoping I had a few more days, just a few more to savor each and every moment. I could not help but feel every part of me just holding on to that moment of complete solitude - the feeling of wrapping my arms around Yzzy as she hugged back and caressed by hair. I have been telling her for a few days now that “Mommy will walk airplane” just coz that’s how she manages to understand that I would go. And she gives …

Yes, its time again to say goodbye to the place I now see as home. For almost a year now, I have gone used to lifestyle, the food, the weather…. Everything. The city has somehow made its way to my heart in one way or another. And as the hours are getting less and less before I finally step on that plane for take off, my family and I feel the need to get together. It will surely be a bittersweet moment to once again go my own way hoping …

One of the best things in life is when someone can finally call you “Mommy”…
Yes, it is still fresh in my mind that very special day I gave birth to my very first baby. It was a feeling I know I will forever hold close to my heart ’til my last breathe. Being blessed to become a mother is ultimately giving me the strength and purpose of living my life in a way I would want my children to live theirs. I am very happy to be a mom. I …

I’m saying sorry in advance ‘coz this won’t always go to plan
Though we don’t mean to take our love for granted
It’s in our nature to forget what matters
How when the going is getting tough
And we’re all about giving up
Things that we never thought we’d gonna say, gonna say them
Things that we never thought we’d play, gonna play them
It ain’t perfect, but it’s worth it
And it’s always getting better
It’s gonna take some time to get it right
Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever …

Heart’s Day 2.14.2010

I’m lost for words. But here goes our share of planning and surprising each other.

Icay’s Surprise: What a week, if you knew what happened in between you’ll know this is going to be something different I must say. I decided to push through with the surprising. I have made surprises for Sweetest in the past but I guess this one is going to be unexpected. (And turns out to really be one!) I decided to ask a few friends, (You know who you two are! Plus our household …

These pictures were of November 19th when our Grandpa Toto and Grandma Pie came to visit family and relatives here in Las Vegas. We all enjoyed a very sumptuous dinner at Buffet @ Asia which happens to be just around the block. And look what we’ve got going. Cousin madness! Emily and Eugene are great kids! See how much fun we had! We actually made ourselves burn all those calories we took in huh?

I haven’t blogged yet about this last photo, but I’m adding it up here. It’s still …

Our first few days left all by ourselves were more of happiness that haven’t sank in yet. Overwhelming. We were also enthusiastic enough to walk to church which was two blocks from our place. Too bad the chapel was closed. That is what it is here, the have schedules on which hours they will have their doors open to the Catholic community to attend mass. Instead of heading straight home, we managed to take pictures of ourselves and ofcourse - the mass schedule so next time we head off, we …

At times when you think there’s nothing else you can do, a tiny light magically presents itself and turns things for the better.

So that was all I need. A very deep heart to heart talk with my God’s Gift. And I tell myself, why can I be stupid not to find the answer when it is (or he is) right in front of me - through the webcam that is. I know I have been on my very unlikely self lately. It seldom comes out you know. And having that …

Has someone ever told you God answers you?
For a lot of days now I have been giving myself heartaches. Honestly, I am so longing home. I have gone over Yzzy’s pictures for the most number of times than anyone could ever have. And it pains me to just go all through them knowing she’s growing up too fast without me. If you are reading this, and you think this is just nothing - all blabber. Please, spare me from another heartache. You’ll eventually feel how I feel if you ever …

…How can the place you so long for be such a nightmare? I have been getting a lot of comments and chats asking me of how I am here. Its just too hard to explain. To shell of yet no one can ever feel what it feels like. I just want to find zen and peace right now. Total silence.